A client recently wrote and said that he is uncomfortable with me tweeting dark images and saying things like “it’s ok to see me if you are not ok”. Their perspective was that it is wrong to market to people who are not feeling ok.

From my perspective those tweets are an INVITATION to say you are welcome with me, you will be accepted by me. I do this for two reasons, 1. I genuinely understand the scope and depth of what a courtesan does and 2. I have known darkness AND I know the incredible UPSIDE of that darkness. I am PASSIONATE about this subject and if someone else can benefit from that insight I will happily share it.

The difficulties we experience in life can be excruciatingly tough no doubt, HOWEVER, if we are aware of our thought patterns those times of crisis can allow for the most amazing CLARITY and FOCUS. I am tougher, stronger, fitter, BETTER because of the HOW I have chosen to THINK, FEEL and BE through times of difficulty. Over the years I have developed my resilience and refined this skill. In my work I see people going through all kinds of challenges in life and you too have seen me face MANY challenges, I just handle things VERY differently to majority of people.

I never accept that who we are today is who we are forever. I believe in a constant state of development and transformation.

It is in the most difficult times that I sharpen up my focus and make a call on what kind of person I want to be and from there I work backwards. I handle things according to my vision of who I am to become. There forward with as close to 100% precision as humanly possible I plan, monitor and execute my thoughts, feelings and actions to ALIGN with my vision. This flows into EVERY aspect of my life. I have BUILT who I am today but let me make it 100% clear that the building has not come through good times, it has come through HARD times.

That pretty Eastern European Princess vibe you have all watched me develop of late has a depth you cannot see, for me the aesthetics are only one aspect of a larger equation. On the inside I am building a hard as fuck Serbian SOLDIER. Capable of ANYTHING.

What are you capable of? Who could you be? Do you spend your life arguing for your limitations? Let’s talk. SMS - 0403 670 351

It is often in times of difficulty and hardship that clients find their way to me and it is this work which I believe is my true calling. I have been absolutely honoured on many occasions to be the one chosen when men are at their most vulnerable.

This week two such clients came to me and I was grateful to them both for the opportunity to experience with them such beautiful rawness. There is nothing quite like witnessing the masks and layers fall away whilst someone bares their soul to me both in and out of bed. In these sessions I provide perspective, acceptance and most importantly SOLACE.

I use an intense combination of ENERGY and INTUITION (in and out of bed) in a very precise and contained manner to guide the session and create an environment which is healing and inspiring. I am so often asked by you how do I know how to do this? How do I hold such a unique perspective and ability? The short answer i usually give is IT'S JUST ME but having been asked this so many times over the years I have decided to let you in a little behind the shine of the digital screen, behind 'Ocean' and into ME the woman who plays simply the role of 'Ocean'. How 'I' (me in totality) CHOOSE think and live are DIRECTLY related to my abilities as a courtesan.

I have always been drawn to spirituality and alternative ways of thinking and three or so years ago I started more seriously studying and experimenting with the use of energy and thought to recreate my life. Over that time, with vigilant practice, a LOT of work and huge sacrifices I have watched what was once simply a vision in my head unfold before my eyes. I am living testament to the concept that if we can change our minds we can change our lives. In the past I have experienced hardship, pain and darkness. That's how I relate so well to your stories. I am not beholden to any particular mainstream society views and I do not follow popular culture or world events. That's how I provide perspective.

My life has not been easy nor has my journey within what is a shockingly brutal industry and just like all of you I still come up against challenges but the smoothness of life all comes down to the attitude we adopt when those challenges occur.

A young girl who came to me for help recently said she doesn't understand how I manage to be so hard and so soft at the same time. It's simple, I choose to step up and be a strong woman who retains her femininity and class rather than be a victim. I don't let life happen to me. I create my life with clarity and purpose. Personal and professional success is the domain of robust humans who are solid and comfortable in their understanding of who they are and the direction in which they are headed. I choose DAILY to have good attitude (yes it's a choice). I choose to NEVER engage in drama or toxic behaviours whether this be a small event or huge event. I am perfectly fine to be disliked and misunderstood by many in order to stay true to who I am.

I choose to ALWAYS bring my energy to a VERY grounded place and I have several practical ways I often share with clients to do this. I am often told that my energy is so 'good' but the better term is 'unclouded' because I believe that EVERY being's natural state is one of love and it's up to us to be vigilant in our thoughts and actions to remain aligned with our true energy whatever the cost may be. I live for the purity of that alignment and I appreciate every beautiful experience it produces.

Good as my blow jobs may be it is actually my steadfastness, my solidity in my own being that you come back again and again to experience. Advice for life? Choose love and watch what happens.

Love Ocean xx

I have a lot of threesomes. And when I say a lot, I mean "A LOT". I have enjoyed several threesomes in my personal life. These were not threesomes I was forced into. I initiatied most of these. And yes I specialise in threesomes in my professional life too. I have also had a lot of very involved and deep conversations about threesomes. Threesomes can take various flavours: a married couple enjoying the presence of a third to spice up their life, two friends bringing in a third to get their kinks on, two people in a sexual-only relationship bringing in a third to enjoy higher highs etc. You get my gyst.

Regardless of the flavour though, I find that many of you are looking at threesomes from the perspective of a twosome with an extra body. Like an additional appendage you know not what to do with. In my humble opinion, a threesome is about more than one body with two or two bodies with one. It is about three ENERGIES coming together as ONE. There are NO awkward moments where you are left thinking “what do I do with these two women? or "what should I do with these two men". I curate the experience and I create the experience. I read you. I read your facial expressions. I observe your body movements. I feel you. I direct and execute. I withold. I release. I surprise. I hold you captive as you hold 'her' captive. You and I will bond further, deeper, over the consumption of a third. You will experience me fully through my interaction with the third and my guided integration between you and the third.

In one on one sex there are many different types of play. Likewise, there many different dynamics within the framework of a threesome. If anything, there are a lot more permutations, combinations, possibilities in a threesome. To give you an idea of how varied this can be I once began a 24 hour session with a client blindfolded, laying on my bed in total stillness whilst an 18 year old blonde beauty simply held and kissed him, she wrapped her body around him as his lover whilst I worshipped his cock. There was no intercourse, no speech and very little movement. What we experienced was a very pure sexual energy. Conversely with that same client within the 24 hours I later introduced another energy into our play. This time we strapped down an 18 year old oriental beauty. We gagged her and simply enjoyed her moans as she helplessly endured the powerful hitachi on her clit. In this scenario we enjoyed her as one may enjoy sharing an amazing meal with the closest of friends. The food is intertwined in the experience, it brings you together. It is a shared moment to cherish. It is a coming together of energies.

These were two very different experiences. Did I change? No. Did he change? No. But the introduction two different female energies inspired us to immerse into two very different experiences. We came together on two different planes. It sometimes isn’t until a swimmer sees me really go for another girl that he understands what I am capable of and how I truly like to play. Those who have experienced the ‘deep end’ as you have begun to call it will know that we have been there more often than not with a (seemingly) fragile deer between us.

What you perhaps don’t know is just how much it satisfies me seeing YOU go for the deer under my encouragement. I know exactly how much the little ones can take and bring you all the way up to the edge of their limits. And yes, they love that just as much as we do.

COCK !!! Now that I have your attention, this blog is really about COCK. Yes! That appendage that you boys oh so love. And that appendage that O, Oh So Loves. Yes! I love cock. And I am proud of the fact that I do. I am transparent that I do. I have yet to encounter a man who does not like having his cock sucked. In fact, in my experience, for many of you it is one of the core reasons you choose to visit an escort. One of my most experienced clients (a lifelong lover of escorts) asked of me, “What is the difference between COCK WORSHIP and a BLOW JOB. Isn’t it the same thing”? I demonstrated the difference to him over one hour. I am certain he will never ask me the question again.

A ‘Blow Job’ has the word JOB in it. A blow job is physical. It is universal. It is, dare I say, ‘vanilla’. A ‘Cock Worship’ transcends the sphere of a job. It goes beyond what is universally done and accepted; by teens, by very willing girlfriends, by very unwilling wives and by seemingly willing mistresses. Cock Worship has the word ‘Worship’ in it. The word worship is defined as ‘the feeling or expression of reverence and adoration for a deity’. That is precisely it. It is about reverence, about respect. It is about giving respect to the man. It is not a chore, for me, this respect is at my core. I am comfortable giving respect which is why many of my sessions start with cock worship and I return to it again and again throughout the session. Clients have oft said to me, through a session, “O, I have not experienced a blow job like this before”. To which I have frequently responded with, “That is because this is not a blow job”. Only those who give themselves over to me and allow for a full session of cock worship know how truly altering it can be. Cock worship can last for hours, a blow job is about a destination, cock worship is about the journey.

Cock worship provides ME pleasure. My lips, my mouth, my tongue, my throat, my soul. I love feeling your enjoyment and your satisfaction in my mouth. I love the expression on your face. I love the tensing up of parts of your body. I love the quiver in your physical form. I love the feeling of running my tongue over the head, I love the feeling of running the head over my face. It is a mindset, it is the difference between CHORE and CORE.

Many, can provide a blow job and provide it well. Few, can offer cock worship.

I am a very Kinky being. To me Kink is more than just sex. Kink is not merely physical. Kink is mental. Kink is deeply spiritual. It is the growth from mere sexualism to absolute sensualism. I find Kink brings brings my swimmers and I closer together than any other facet. I am a very kinky woman. I was a really kinky girl. As I age, the gravity and fabric of my kink strengthens. I was recently thinking about how my world of kink must look from the outside and how different it is for those of us on the inside.

I have corrupted many swimmers. Taken them to the dark side to play in a space they have never played in before. In all of my work I am very free. Nothing though compares to the TOTAL freedom that I find in kink. Life is a series of experiences, many of them offer little stimulation. They are simply neutral and we repeat them; again and again and again. That which is neutral makes up the bulk of our lives however, if we are truly fortunate and OPEN to it we will be granted the opportunity to both lose ourselves and find ourselves in an experience which takes us in COMPLETELY. One whereby the mindset we take into our day to day life is left so far behind that we are not even aware of it anymore, we become removed from that aspect of ourselves and in turn we become ANIMAL.

Recently I had one such experience with a long time and very loyal swimmer. We spent four hours playing. We played HARD. We played non-stop. I literally mean 'HARD' and 'NON STOP'. Within a week he returned for another session to help process that last one. His words sent to me post the second swim - “What a fucking journey. That wasn’t a swim on Friday. It was a baptismal drowning with a resurrection. One of the most intense experiences of my life.”

These experiences are pure. They are raw. They lie at the core and initiate from the core. It is as if we take what we think is possible in sex, in connection, in spirit and then violently murder it while concurrently reconstructing a new way of being with another soul and we do it all completely on the fly. It is hardcore but at the same time deeply intimate and it is an intimacy that isn’t about conversation and cuddles. It is a bond. A bond that was built because that place we went to together was a previously undiscovered, unexperienced vortex of surreal existence and fuck, once we have been there together there is quite simply just a quiet understanding between us.

I am not only a very Kinky being. I am KINK.

About a week ago, I served a client. Yes I SERVED a client. I use the word 'served' purposefully. It comes from my deep rooted interest in REAL courtesan-ship rather than pretending to be one. So, I SERVED the client for a 3 hour session.

There was plenty of time to engage with him in a meaningful dialogue between the sexual bliss. The conversation started with economics and a discussion around Australia's placement in the global economic climate. He was so brilliant that the orgasm continued post sex. There is something amazing about a man fingering your cunt while he educates you. Very very blissful. Learning about macro and micro economics and coming repeatedly has a certain charm not to be found in the world of illiterate sex.

The economics lesson moved on to a much deeper and personal conversation. I ended up asking him "How was your first swim with me today" referring to my session. To which he responded "An absolutely amazing experience. Very whole. Not mechanical at all". He then smiled. I latched on to the words "WHOLE" and "MECHANICAL". I asked him what was whole about it and what was not mechanical.

He said it was whole because I got access to more than just your physical self. I had your ears. I had your attention. I had you. completely present. That struck a chord with me. My devotion to Yoga, to meditation and spirituality is about being fully present. I was pleased to see that I was wholly present.

The other word I latched on to was that I was not "MECHANICAL". He said that many of his experiences were with beautiful women who looked immaculate and yet t hey were clinical in how they had sex. He had access to their bodies but it was very limited and limiting. He found his sexual experiences, especially with the younger and extremely attractive girls, quite underwhelming. He said their bodies and faces were often perfect but the sessions were not. I deduced that physical perfections do not add up to be a perfect experience.

He said that his session with me was not cold, it was not clinical, it was not functional and that it was connected, it was involved and it was a session where he felt he belonged.

So now I have a deeper understanding of why my swimmers come back to me. I now understand that it is not just one thing that makes a girl good at this game. Physical beauty is often a prerequisite, however, it is not enough. And in some cases, I find ordinary looking women with not perfect bodies and not 18 years of age make great courtesans. So it really is that formidable blend of everything; looks, charm, intellect, ability to connect, imagination, playfulness, skills, ability to completely immerse into the experience… A body is just that, a body. Nice to look, nice to touch but ultimately it does not offer enough to the experience. I realised that my swimmers come back to me for all the things which cannot be documented in photographs or satisfactorily be put into words. It is the intangible that is the most powerful element. It is the ability to create a whole world within the boundaries of a moment.

Recently, a swimmer said to me straight after a session; "Ocean, I love the fact that you are so feminine and that you are not a feminist". He said that, paused, smiled and left the room. I was a bit taken aback by the statement because he is an extremely mild mannered and softly spoken elderly gentleman and in my several sessions with him I have never seen him express opinion. Definitely not such a 'charged up' opinion.

I pondered and reflected on what he had said. Yes, he was very correct in his opinion. I am not a feminist. In writing this I mean no disrespect to those who are feminists. I am very supportive of female rights. However, I do not believe in supporting extreme notions; be they extremities of sexism, racism or feminism. I don’t believe in supporting extremes whereby men are no longer allowed to be MEN. I like masculine men and I like feminine women.

I think women are often unaware of the value (and power) of true femininity. Femininity that is grounded in the core and the soul of a woman. I don’t need to use aggression to mark my place in society (or this industry). Strength and power need not come from raised voices, masculine overtones, swearing, yelling or degrading men. The elegant Japanese Geisha knows her strength is in her femininity, as do I.

I speak softly, I choose to wear my hair long. I wear dresses and skirts. I love wearing heels. I love being effeminate. I love being a 'girl'. I absolutely love being a 'woman'. None of this is for show. It is who I am. It is me at my core. I was born a girl. I grew up to be a woman. A girl who is overtly aggressive and bitchy in nature can put on a dress. At surface level she will appear feminine. However, that femininity is merely platonic. It is not real. To be in the presence of an authentic feminine woman is a vastly different experience. I am a very traditional woman in my views and in my personal relationships I am most comfortable in a traditional role. This does not mean I lead or the man leads. This means, I am a woman and want to be appreciated as one. This equally means, I let a man be a man and appreciate him as one. I will add that I am completely and equally bisexual, hence, I really enjoy femininity and as such the sexual companionship of women. I am not modern. I am traditional whilst I am not traditional. I am just me and happy being me. I accept who I am, what I need and where I belong.

I love men and the masculinity that comes from a man. I don't care for race, colour or creed. But I believe firmly in the nomenclature and philosophy of beings and things. I equally believe in nature. I believe firmly that masculinity belongs to a man. Equally I love women and the femininity that comes from a woman. I don't care for race, colour or creed. But I believe firmly in the nomenclature and philosophy of beings and things. I equally believe in nature. So I believe firmly that femininity belongs to a woman.

You need only look at my tumblr to learn that I deeply appreciate the female form. I LOVE kissing another girl, I love to eat and finger her cunt. Yes, I know the difference between licking cunt and eating it. I love nothing more than having both a woman and man at once. To devour a girl alongside a man is a great pleasure of mine. To watch a man devour another woman is another great pleasure. To watch masculinity fuck femininity is a huge turn on. To watch femininity let masculinity fuck her is an even bigger turn on.

I am not convectional. I am 'unconvention'. I am not the norm. I am the margin. I am not who you want me to be. I am me.

See more imagery curated by me at www.sydneysocean.tumblr.com

Also follow me on Twitter and Instagram @sydneysocean

I share who I am and what I am about on twitter. I want you to have more insight into the kind of person I am and I invite you to the window from where you can see me interacting with others. It took some courage to be SO open but I now see the virtue of that transparency.

I believe there is good in EVERYONE. At our deepest core we are all have puritan elements about us. How we interact with others, how we treat them, what judgements we hold on them, how much or little we accept them. Cumulatively all of this defines how they treat us. If I can inspire you with positive energy, to me that is beautiful, that is satisfying. I had and continue to have the opportunity of just sharing my aesthetics with you for getting more likes and more retweets. But then I would have missed the opportunity to experience your deepest core.

Meaning is a big of me. Meaning is a big part of what I bring. Meaning is a big part of what I want you to find in me.

I am me. I am different. I am unconventional to the point of that I am the unconvention. So thank you swimmers for accepting my unconventionality.

Find more imagery curated by me on my tumblr www.sydneysocean.tumblr.com

Follow me on twitter @sydneysocean

Annie Leibovitz said about her work “A thing that you see in my pictures is that I was not afraid to fall in love with these people.”

Annie’s words resonated with my deepest core. Reason; As your courtesan I am not afraid to show you love. I invite it. I welcome it. I give it. And give so freely. I show love deeply and want deep love shown.

When I hold your head in my hands, when I run my hands, my hair, my tongue and my glance over you, when I look into your eyes deeply, I consciously and purposefully do so. I am at that moment in time in a state of love, I take you into me completely. I give my entirety to you. The words love and romance are often confused. My love for you is not romantic. It is deeper than that. It is higher than that. It is at my core.

Courtesan-ship plays a major role in my spiritual journey. My time with you is an opportunity to practice my understanding that our separateness is not reality, it is mere illusion.

“We are here to awaken from our illusion of separateness” - Thich Nhat Hanh.

My swimmers often report that they have been renewed, reenergised, their spirits lifted, their anxiety eased... It is the profound experience of true connectedness which drives that outcome.

“I honor the place in you in which the entire universe dwells.

I honor the place in you which is of love, of truth, of light, and of peace.

When you are in that place in you and I am in that place in me, we are one.” ~ Namaste prayer

So allow me to sense you. Come sense me. Allow me to feel you. Come feel me. Allow me to touch you. Come touch me. Allow me to breathe you. Come breathe me.

Whilst being completely awake, be asleep with me. Dream with me. Wake up with me. Consume me. Let me consume you. Be me. Let me be you.

Love Ocean.

Find more imagery curated by me on my tumblr www.sydneysocean.tumblr.com